I blame the holidays! lol That and the fact that Andrew has been sick with some type of stomach virus for the last few days... But I'm going to try and catch up my 30 days of truth....
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Something I love about myself.... Hmmm I love the fact that no matter what, I can usually figure out a way to get everything that really needs to be accomplished done. And that after everything I've been through I can still hold my head high and not let the little stuff get to me.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Something to forgive myself for.... this one is difficult, because I do my best not to let all my mistakes get me down. Maybe I'll think of something later, and I'll post this then.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Something I need to forgive someone for... well, there's really not anyone I need to forgive, because i don't really hold grudges. matter of fact, I don't know if it's a good thing or a bad thing, well it's got it's food sides and bad sides, but I find it hard to stay upset at anyone for longer than just a few mins. This is good, because I never worry about things that happened in the past, but can be bad in the fact that some people take advantage of it. The only time that I really have a difficult time forgiving anyone is when they do something to my child. Don't you dare do something against my child....
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Something I hope to do in life... I've already got an associates in early childhood education, an diploma in patient care assisting and as of may of 2011 i'll have an associates in microsoft office paraprofessional, but what I really would like to do is work with kids one on one and help them grow and develop the best they can. My heart particularly reaches out to children with special needs. I've considered being a speech patologist, an occupational therapist, or anything that I would be able to work with children.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
I hope I never loose one of my children, or my husband. I absolutely hate having to part with Andrew when he leaves to go to Adam's house every other weekend. I'm dreading this weekend whenever he has to leave for a whole week. This will be the longest I've ever had my baby boy gone from me. The only other time that he's been gone more than 2 days is when he was gone for Thanksgiving. He was gone for 4 days, and I was going crazi from missing him so bad. I couldn't imagine haveing him or Meagan or Brodie being gone forever. I think I would loose it. As for Shawn, I dread the day he has to be deployed. I never want to have to loose him. The longest I've been away from him since we started dating was 3 months. He went to some training, and I was literally going crazi from missing him. I could never imagine having him gone forever either. I don't know how Shawn is able to deal with the death of Debbie.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Andrew- my precious baby boy. He made my life complete. I hid my pregnancy for the first 7 months, but after he arrived, it only made me try that much harder to better myself for him so that I could made the money I needed to to support us. In addition to Andrew, my wonderful fiancee Shawn makes life worth living for. He made me see that I am worth spending the time and the money that he spends on me. Before Shawn every other guy I dated treated me like dirt, and never acted like I was worth the time they spent on me. I thank God for every day that the Lord blesses me to have him in my life. I dnn't know what I would do without him I dread the day he has to be deployed, and unfortunately as of right now he is schedualed to be deployed only a week and a half after we get marriend.....
Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like sh*t.
All of my past boyfriends. None of them really treated me the way I should have been, and all made my self esteem drop lower and lower. Also alot of guys from high school. I wasn't the prettiest girl in school and all of them made sure I knew it. Of all the guys in high school, only one was good to me, and that was Howard, and to this day he is still one of my best friends. He's to be in my wedding come April. But as I've mentioned before, I don't hold grudges, so ALL of these guys have already been forgiven for the pain and strife they've put me through.
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